"I Love you but love her too"....WHAT?

[Notlikingthis]

Snodderly, It's good to hear that my h is following the script. I agree, he is living like there is no tomorrow right now. Last year around Thanksgiving he told me that I was going to be a rich lady one day. It actually scared me as he had just been to the Dr. about 5 months previous to saying that. I asked him why he was saying that and asked if he was sick and wasn't telling me. He said no, I can see the future and that's all that I'll say. I wasn't sure if I believed him (that he was telling me everything) but then my attention turned to his trip to see the ow. That frightened me as much as the thought of him having some terminal disease that he wasn't telling me about. I told him that I didn't want to be a rich lady and that I that was important to me didn't involve money. Now I realize that he was already "hooked" on her and he was trying to warn me. They say and think the craziest things! So my h thinks he's a soothsayer. LOL! It's was his wishful thinking talking.

When he stopped by and I wasn't here he called me to tell me that he was sorry to have missed me this afternoon. He said that last night was fun and that I looked very nice. I think he's just trying to build up my ego for whatever reason. I don't think I'll call him back till tomorrow if at all.

He doesn't live near a bus line and would have to park in a park and ride about a mile from his house. He could do that but for a reason that I don't understand he drives here, walks a block to the bus that takes him to the boat that goes to the downtown area where he works. Sounds more complicated than just using the park and ride near his house, doesn't it? Do you think it gives him comfort in some distorted way to keep his commuting routine the same? LOL I thought about parking my car around the corner and down the street overnight a few times to see if he looks into the garage window for my car each morning. He doesn't want me but he doesn't want me to stray too far. I also think he's trying to stay connected in his own way.

For the most part, I think I'm doing okay with all of this. I keep reading the stories that others have told and the advice from the wise ones, like yourself and hope that I'll be one of the lucky ones whose h finds their way back home. It seems like the chances of that aren't the greatest but it's worth the time, energy and patience to wait. He isn't a perfect man but neither am I a perfect woman. We were still very much in love prior to his MLC, always made sure that we kept the lines of communication open, made trips to some wonderful countries around the world, met some very interesting people along the way and had the utmost respect for our differences. Yep, there were arguments and heated discussions ocassionally. Rarely did we go to bed mad at each other.

DAMN THE MLC! I'm here for the long haul, it's worth every tear, every frustration and even the chaos he's created in my life. No matter what happens I will be just fine. There may be an empty place in my heart at some point but it will always be full of love and appreciation for the gifts that God has given me.