Just checking in. I'm having a harder time detaching than I originally was. I admire everyone who can keep doing it so vigorously.
I am still keeping up with my diet. Lost a few pounds, and not because I was depressed. Mostly, because I've been watching my weight. I have set a future weight goal I hope to hit by the end of the month. H has stopped eating all together. I'm trying hard not to be concerned for his health, and just focus on myself. It's hard just thinking for myself now. I'm also trying hard to stay focused in my school despite everything going on. Thankfully, it's summer and things are slow. I get paid to work at the school lab, so my job is pretty lenient as long as I show some results. I'm thinking of going on a mini vacation to a resort for my birthday. Last birthday, as H and I share a birthday, we celebrated with his family at a cabin. They didn't wish me a happy birthday, nor acknowledge me. It was the worse birthday I've ever had. This time I say forget about his family, and H. I'm going to have me a good time, even if it is alone. I'm expecting to go alone, and while I have told H I have not invited him to come with me. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to or not.... I don't want to pressure him into doing something just to please me.
I have set a future weight goal I hope to hit by the end of the month. H has stopped eating all together. I'm trying hard not to be concerned for his health, and just focus on myself. It's hard just thinking for myself now. 