Ok spoke with alanon sponsor for 1 hour today. He thought it was absolutely redic that me and W do not have any communication. That is not a marriage at all. He layed out what my choices are.
1. leave things as is, work on myself 2. ask her what steps we could take to make M healthy again or what steps we take to end it, work on myself.
Going to continue to pray but I think I am going to do #2 tonight after kids in bed. It has been another 2 months of zero talking. I would like to try to have adult conversation with my W. Not sur where this day will take me I am leaving it in higher power. But I am certainly not going to go another 4 months of near silent treatment with W over a perceived comment.
I am going to keep conversation generic. Not bringing up OM tonight.
I can tell you this. My W is not happy. Nothing to do with me. She isn't happy being home with kids. She is dreading summer having both kids out of school. She basically can find a negative in anything. yesterday she posted a video of our kids fighting. Stupid. She just finds away to complain about anything and everything. Getting tiring for PON. Being a SAHM is a great thing for the kids, but not if you allow it to depress you and ruin your own life.
She needs to get a job and honestly she could if she wanted too. she has coverage by me and her mom but always has an excuse.
Anyways just my journaling today. I'll see where this all takes me. I feel anxiety free right now
