I have been having a decent day. Back to my summer work schedule, suns shining. Wife was out detialing her car right in the front of the business. So, I stopped and sparked up a small conversation. It was going well, so at the end I said, "hey, daughter and I wanted to check out that new sushi place tomorrow. Would you like to join us?". Her answer was, " a friend is having a Mary K party, and I am going to that". I mentioned that it was our anniversary, and she mentioned that she didn't forget the date. I said, "well it's worth remembering", and away I went....choked up...was full of expectations and it bit me on the hiney. I tried to act as if, but I am sure there was visable hurt in my face. I haven't put an offer out there in a while and I start by doing a spur of the moment date offer? I don't even know what I expected. Regardless, We have been growing farther and farther apart. Wife is dating. She is starting a new life that I probably wouldn't fit into now, even if we did reconcile. She isn't coming back and it is time for me to really get that through my thick skull. I think maybe it is time for me to go as dark as possible. It's just too much on me, and I can't detach or hold no expectations when I engage her.
