Portia, I also had a weird dream last night. I saw that Mexican girl my H was trying to fancy. She was trying to sort of make some amends with me, in a very strange way.
Keep processing your feelings. I also have some days when I cannot understand what is going on with me.
Linda, to answer your question about the book I was referring to. They recommend at least 30 days of NC before the first text. And, if the response is neutral, to wait a few days before sending another (similar) text.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state