I think you are correct in the fact that I am looking for outside things to make me feel better. I understand that.
I did see my Dr and was told i was clinicly depressed btu was not going to classify me as that. I need help and he did take the meds I was already taking and and increased it. He did say it would take 2 weeks to see a diff. but i have taken this new does for 3 days and I feel better and not like a zombie. But i want to wait the 3 weeks to see if this is for real or is it just one of my swings.
Yes I still think of W and miss her and want her back but I am not feeling doomed and over whelmed by all this now.
I also had my DB session today and she told me that i even sounded much much better then 2 weeks ago. So as far as W goes All Im to do at this point is to send small texts about good things happening. Not sure i said it correct. Just say thing like i am a friend and nothing more. But I am going to wait a few weeks to do this for my new meds to kick in.
This drought up a good point and it was that i told her i was not doing to much to talk about the good things in my life. so my DB session was good in the fact i was told and i know i was told before but it hit me this time. I need to start doing things to be able to have things to talk about. also try to make more new friends.
I just find my mood diffrent and I just Pray it keeps going in this direction.
