Its tough; getting tougher

[amy1982]

Thanks to all who viewed my posts. I am hoping some of the vets will stop by & give me advice & hope. Its so hard to hear over & over that I have done the unforgivable & H just cant be "in love " W/ me..Then I feel upset because earlier in our marriage I was in a lot of pain because he took videos of our sex life & showed a friend w/o my knowledge, he opened blinds so that friend could watch us have sex, he let that friend handle me at the same time H was, was buying gifts 4 another women etc. I want to tell him he was the one that broke me down but Im afraid that would come off as justifying myself.