New to This - An English Man In Trouble

[Hadlee58]

Hi Guys,
Thanks for all the positive messages much appreciated!
Update Monday 17th June:
Well i called into the party on friday night for a quick hello, i made sure i looked great and smiled and talked to everyone as if nothing had happened and i actually quite enjoyed it, stayed longer than i thought!! I was very nervous beforehand but had it under control before i opeened the door. When i returned home later that evening everything was fine and we talked not too much about R. My wife went out on Saturday with a divorced friend and stayed at her house (she lives quite far away) so i got to spend a great day with the kids and loved them waking me up on sunday (fathers day) with breakfast and presents, they are great kids!!!
My wife returned at noon on sunday and decided to tag along to the chinese restaurant i had booked for myself and the kids, we all had a great time, i think its the first time in a long time that we have done something together (all four of us).
We talked again on Sunday night after the kids were in bed and she said that she hasnt followed up the rental place she veiwed last weekend and needed a bit more time to make her mind up, she did say that she had been dreading me returning home last week and yet she has enjoyed this week, she even indicated that she had discussed with her mother that she felt a little different this week....
I am trying not to read anything into this, too many times before i have built my hopes up only to find it was a false dawn. But plan on not mentioning our R unless she brings it up and continuing on my own goals, painting the fence tonight!!

Feel in a slightly better place today!!!