Seems like I get angry, think I'm done, then bounce back and continue on. When I stop bouncing back - that will be when I reach my limit.
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Onto Father's Day...
I think Father's Day is especially tough for my H. It's a solid reminder that he has a family, and possibly what he's doing to them.
He was very depressed last year. Wasn't sure what to expect this year.
I had the boys color pictures for him. They picked out a bag of practice golf balls for his gift.
I wasn't sure what I should get him, if anything. He did nothing for me for Mother's Day - but I didn't want to get into tit for tat. Not the road I wanted to go down.
A few months ago, H was drawing with the boys in our driveway using chalk. S5 drew a picture of H - it was really cute, and H got a big kick out of it. So when H wasn't around, I snapped a picture of it before the rain washed it away.
For his gift, I ordered a magnet in which one side was a very cute pic of the boys standing with their arms around one another. On the other side - the chalk drawing of H.
I put it in the bag with the golf balls. I did not get him a card.
When he opened the magnet, he sort of just looked at it at first. When he saw the chalk drawing, he got a big genuine smile. ~~~~~~~~~~
We had all the grandparents over for dinner. I cooked steaks, baked potatoes, grilled veggies, brownies. It was very good, and everyone was raving about it. BIL even said it was better than steak he gets at restaurants
Once everyone left, of course H started with the texting. No doubt scheming all their plans for today!
He did thank me for everything. I told him that I thought he was very good with the boys, and that I've noticed S5 has been much closer to him lately (which is true). He always says things like "Daddy likes this song" or "Daddy likes that tv show". He's always watching him.
H said he's noticed that too. That he feels like S5 has been closer with him since he has stopped yelling at him or grabbing him. That he is really trying to be better.
As we're talking, he starts texting, like I'm not even there. Rude. So I turn around and go up to bed without another word. I refuse to just stand there and wait till he's done texting. Then of course we had his wonderful behavior this morning...
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So MIL asks H when would be a good night for him to camp out with the boys. He finally tells her he is going on his trip. She asks when he is leaving and coming back. He tells her, and she says something like "Oh, so you're not going to be able to do anything with us." I can't say she was mad, but definitely seemed surprised.
Should be interesting.
That's all for now folks. Still mad about today. So I booked a facial and massage for myself for tomorrow. My new mantra - don't get mad, get pampered
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
