Husband has one foot out the door!

[chasingpavements]

Alright, so I had a rough moment and told him I wanted to separate, which I now regret. He seemed surprised and like he wasn't quite ready to throw in the towel, although he still seemed to not have much hope either. So I guess he is sitting on the fence. We were supposed to have a talk later that night, and we both ignored that when the time came around. Since I seem to be the initiator in our relationship, and he avoids confrontation, I can see this scenario being dragged out for quite a long time!!

So we spent a nice weekend together. Saturday we spent the day out and about as a family, going to the park with the children, etc. We were friendly enough to each other, although he seemed distant.

Yesterday we went to his parent's house for father's day. I'm sure people out there can relate with this.. for this type of event I am not sure whether to invite myself along or let him go alone, etc. So I didn't mention anything about myself going, either way. Then as we were about to leave he asked if I was ready to go, so I ended up going with him. We ended up having a nice day at his parents house.

Although, after spending mostly the whole weekend with him, I am going back to "lovingly distancing". Frankly, it is hard for me to be around him, when he is constantly sighing, and looking distant/sad/thoughtful. So back to GAL's, and my 180s this week.