Its tough; getting tougher

[amy1982]

This is Sunday & once again I had to take the three girls to church..alone. It is very hard. People wonder whats up & what can I say? H said one time he didn't want to go bcause I talked to friends but I only did one time at the beginning of sitch when I was tore up that my H went from daily calls & contact to total silence for 5 wks (except 4 coming home on wkends) But I was used to daily calls & it was a real stretcher having him work away from home. So I don't know..I could blame myself but Im only learning & trying not to go crazy. When I got home from church he was just leaving...all dressed up in western clothes & boots..w/ the jet ski. seems weird to me.