Just saying hello.

[prometheus]

...changes in a LBS can trigger a WAS/MLCer to BD.

I realise that i have left out some pertinent info...W was thinking about this stuff before i brought it up. She went away for a couple of days in July, 2012, to have a bit of a think about things. Then, in October, 2012, she went on a week long spiritual/healing retreat(for her birthday).

I came across the notes that she had written during that trip that she took in July. I found them some time after W had written back to me saying that she could not be / did not want to be married to me any longer (towards the end of August). :-( I was snooping, looking for answers for what was happening. They revealed that she was weighing up the pros and cons of staying married, detailed some events that she believes were significant (i can go into this if deemed advisable).

There was also a page of "wants" as well as a page of "do not wants". I photographed the notes. I was so overjoyed to find them, because it meant that my W was at least still thinking about our relationship, only a month or two before, whereas i, was under the impression from her letter to me, that we were done, and had been for a long time....

Give your chemicals a chance to catch up with your physical changes. Eventually, you are likely to notice a positive change in your emotions. If you don't notice any changes in a few weeks, maybe seek a dr. regarding that.

I am not sure what you mean here. Are you talking about the exercise? I have been doing this for months but have had no real respite from becoming emotionally overwhelmed from time to time. I have had a stint on AD's about eight or so years ago. I had no plan and just turned into an emotionless zombie. I have wondered about chemical imbalances, heard exercise helped emotionally. I think that i am too embroiled in my own personal crisis to be very objective about it though. I *really* do not want to be taking pills for this stuff. Also, my liver is compromised, so the less toxins going in the better.

That said, are you emotionally OPEN with others? That means, shy or not, do you find it difficult to be emotionally open and vulnerable with friends?

I have found this ^^^ to be true in the past. I am working on it though, but would still consider myself to be reserved in nature. I tend to avoid confrontation like the plague, apart from friendly banter - that, i love!

On emotionally supportive, are you able to be empathetic (rather than rescuer) with others who might be down?

I would say that i am able to be most of the time. If i am feeling down myself, then i can have difficulty in being supportive. Also, if i am angry or annoyed at someone then i can be somewhat withholding in my support, i have noticed. In a work setting, i deal with situations every day where i have cause to offer such empathy to people who are down, or otherwise suffering or anguished. Seeing as how these people are rarely close friends, i don't know if that counts or not.

Thanks for listening.