Bluedown,
I can fully identify with your uneasiness. I'm fairly new to this but in my situation it would defininitely turn my H heart further away. IMO it would be better at this time to focus on the changes you can make for yourself.
I just began a thread & you're welcome to become acquainted w/ my sitch..Its tough; getting tougher.
((((hugs)))


H;30 M;31
M9yr
D9 D7 D3
H EA 2009 EA 11
Me PA 2012
H-ILYBNIL 5/13 in EA maybe PA