Its tough; getting tougher

[amy1982]

Back 2 my story..It seems that was the straw that broke the camels back & he closed his heart to me. That was 7 mo ago. Now he spends most of his evenings away..at his BF house where Mandy lives. I don't even try 2 Know whats going on. I have learned some bitter lessons. I used to be dependant, insecure, & looked for him to make me happy. Im learning..sometimes I do great with being unattached but then I slip back 2 my old ways and fret & want to just throw in the towel.
Especially when I think of the odds against me..From all I see he's having EA, his best friends don't respect me & I feel that has greatly influenced my H (I cant say I respect them a whole lot because they don't have high morals;& Im not referring 2 making a mistake & repenting..but what theyre good with). My H also has recently started staying home from church & that's hard on me.
Some things I've recently begun doing is using earphones & relaxing as I listen to Affirmation meditation from youtube. I have also enjoyed looking up Options Institute on Google & listening to the videos they have posted. I would go to their seminar if I could!