Clear goals and a vision for the future

[Lyrael]

Thank you, Dazed and Pattie, for being here. I am okay. It's kind of like World War 3 here right now - well, not right now. I do know that part of my EXTREME upset/discontent/irrationality is because of ...PMS. Yes, plain and simple PMS. Unfortunately, that doesn't take away the hurt feelings of my H. He just left - Ihe said he needed to think, so I hugged him and told him to go, that I would be here. I am afraid of what he will think of when he thinks - I haven't exactly been the model of loving kindness lately, but ...it's all I could do. I could have made him stay here - for some reason it seemed like he needed my permission to go, and needed to have me be okay with it. And for once, instead of just pushing on, I had to let him go.

Dammit - I don't know what's going to happen now. Part of the behavior (most os it) that gets on my nerves is, I really think, symptoms of adult ADD that has never been dealt with. But I can't change him, I can only change me. Boy, Betsey is going to whack me with the 2x4 from hell when she reads all this on Monday. I feel like such a weenie.

I don't know if this can be fixed.
Myrrh