Just I am just journaling. I received an email from ex h saying he was not ready for a relationship but thank God he still has time?? Cant say I know what that mean. Said he needed to figure out what direction his life wss going. The email ended with I love you always, h. Have not responded and I will not respond I had basically responded in an earlier email that he was all the way with me or all the way without me. His choice was oblivious so he is all the way without me now. No texting, no emailing, no nothing. Its been a little over a week that I have been NC. I think of him all the time and guess my sub conscious played some tricks on me yesterday. I started ordering a book for him as I had brought him several books when I 9we were together . Most of the books were written by male leaders such as pastor'
