Hi everyone. Having some really hard times right now. I am just such a mess. I worked in the yard most of the day. Didn't really make a dent. H spent the evening with JW and I am sure will spend the weekend with her. I am just so confused and hurting. Just when I think I am making some progress I just fall right back down. I just feel so worthless and if H really wanted to be with me he would never have went looking for JW. And now H is "happy." I am just sick of feeling this way. I am pathetic waiting for his scraps.
I am so sorry to be like this. I thought maybe if I got some of this out it would let me have some peace or breathing room or something. I hate feeling sorry for myself. This is so hard and I feel so alone. I hate him so much right now this second. But I know it won't last. I am just rambling like a crazy woman. What if H never gets thru this?? Going to go do a lot more praying. Thank you all for listening.
