MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

[Live4myDay]

Ok I've had time to settle myself. Still interested in the "MLC types" if you can forward.

Other than upcoming Father's Day, there really isn't any way to communicate with one another. I'll probably text him Happy Father's Day just to reciprocate since he text me Happy Mother's Day. Odd because he can't even text me Happy Birthday of which I celebrated 25 years with. And he text me on Saturday, which I replied thank you but its tomorrow. He then text me again on Sunday.

Feeling a little more in control of my life these days. S just left from his week and half visit that I enjoyed so much!!! He plans on returning sometime in August for 2 weeks before he returns back to college.

I guess now I just learn to practice PATIENCE...work on myself, GAL and PMA. I'm trying to just stay "dark" even on facebook I'm not really posting anything about myself. He doesn't have facebook but I know he either looks at mine or has someone keep him up to date because he's made comments to my D.

I'm trying really hard not to focus on him and OW. Told S and D that he doesn't see her that much maybe 2x a month. I playout different scenerios in my head of how it's gonna end for them. LOL. But I more often think about him thinking about me. Of which I hardly think he does. I miss him. But so much time has passed (2 years) that I am so afraid that I am totally gone from his life.

My D and I may be planning a major move in the future and told my D to have me email him my thoughts...really? He can't contact me himself. Sad really. I'm not opening that door until he knocks. That's one of those things (GAL) that maybe he should start to wonder about. But being with my D nothing is that secret.

Any thoughts or ideas of future communications??