Well, last night was a very quiet success. Dustin and I played EQ (I think it's our answer to quality time!) together until about 11pm. I finally logged to go to bed, gave him my usual good night call (which was kind of cute, because I called him "my little night owl" and he laughed. He called me sweetie a couple of times, which is always a sure sign he's feeling pretty loving.

I finished up stuff around the house (yes, I got almost all of my Flylady goals done), and put on my jammies and got into bed. I've been rereading DR lately, just to keep me focused, so I read some in that. Every time I had a "he should be home" thought, I thought instead "he's just my little night owl" and somehow my attitude was one of acceptance of him as himself, rather than me dealing with an irritating and unacceptable behavior (thanks, Bets). It just reiterates for me that this is all a matter of attitude. When Mer said to me a while ago - give up the TV family ideal, that's not yours, she was VERY right. My family may not be conventional, but it is mine, and I love both my boys very much. The hard part of this now is consistent success in this area, because that's what will speak to my H - my consistency and stability, both in my attitude toward him, and my ability to take care of my end of the house/S responisiblities.

*Cheers* for a good night! He came home at 2 (as usual) and I hugged him (I am always really lovey when I'm half-asleep) and we snuggled and - I can't believe not two weeks ago I told him I was scared because I thought he wasn't attracted to me that way anymore.
I'll post goals for tonight in a bit, as I haven't thought that far ahead today.
Hugs for all!
Myrrh

One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.