OK so she did not reply and it hurt but im ok. But still very depressed and going to see Dr this Sat tomorrow. let see if he can help and not make me feel like a zombie. I will not have that at all. I just feel like i'm a grown man and I should be able to deal with this. And becouse I cant i feel like im not the man i should be.
But this morning I had this feeling that i just wanted to say hi to W so i did send the text. and thats all it was " Hi " nothing more. She did reply and said Hello and that was it. i left it alone as i did not know what more to say.
I am sure she is thinking why did he just say hi. I have so much to say to her but it would push her over the edge and I would never have any chance if i even still have one now.
God why did you let this happen. Please fix me my W and our Marriage. All i realy want is for the W to get rid of this GF she has. I effin hate her so much as i know she took advantage of the situation cause thats just how she was.. she has done it before i know this cause she has said so when W and me and this Effin GF were out one day.
I just think the only thing that can happen is for something bad to happen in the current W and GF relationship before she will even think of moving on.some how I just need to have my W understand that even though she crossed over to the other side she can still come back. I think that sometimes she may feel that she crossed a bridge she does not know how to get back. I just want her to know it is ok and i will be here...
this all make sense to everyone. is it wrong thinking on my part.
