I'm so glad the boys are out of school. They are content hanging out and doing things together and I am enjoying having mornings to myself. I'm not in the usually frenzy of making breakfast and lunches, looking for socks, etc. and getting everyone out the door on time. I work close to home so I can have lunch with them and be a little bit of a presence midday.
Not much has happened with the D the last few weeks and I've noticed I feel happier. I've been laughing a lot at work, I'm sleeping better and have a sense of well being that has been lacking. I have had moments of sadness, too, but I know they are temporary. All of this underscores how important it is that a settlement be reached and the D finalized. This isn't what I wanted, but since it is going to happen the sooner the better.
I do wonder what my H is experiencing now that he has zero contact with me, can no longer track my life through our bank account (I'm only using my new account now) and he can't contact my attorney - the new one will not allow it. After a year and a half he has no connection to us anymore. We're feeling better. Is he? It's interesting that in the last email to my former attorney he wrote that he no longer has contact with me and the boys; how much worse can this get? What did he think, that he could lash out at me forever? Did he still consider me a safety net? I don't know. I just thought it was odd coming from someone who abandoned his family and was enjoying a new, carefree life.
