Hi Blue~~ I am so very sorry this is happening to you. I know that pain. I too did not want to get out of bed and as a matter of fact I didn't for a few days. But then~~I am going to be totally honest with you and it might even give you a smile...I stunk!! I mean it. No shower for a few days and wallowing in my bed. So I took the longest, hottest shower I could. Screamed at the top of my lungs while in the shower. Got dressed, put clean sheets on the bed and then hit the Internet looking for something, anything to help me with this pain. And you know what??? I found this site and these amazing people. I don' t know what I would have done.
I have had some really bad times and I went to some really BAD places inside myself that I never thought I would go to. And the people here got me through. You cannot do this alone. Period. You just can't. I also am trying to stand very strong in my faith in the Lord. It scares me to think it out loud but I would not be here right now if not for my faith in God and these people who are like angels on earth to me. That pain just rips apart your very soul. But....
Start by just taking deep breaths. It helps. I pray constantly. If that is not your thing, don't worry I got you covered . Get out and feel the sun on your face. Come here and let it all out. Start a journal where you can name call and say anything you want. Heck I do that on here. There is no judgement here. We are all in this walking the same awful road but at different streets...Eat cake for dinner.what ever you need to do to start taking baby steps FORWARD. Will you have backward days...oh yes my friend you are talking to the backward queen.
I know you miss your old life. Right there with you Blue. Who's to say what is on the other side of the tunnel?? You have to stay strong and want to be doing this. I am right beside you walking with you. And I will pick you up and help you move forward. You hang on Blue. Like Winnie the Pooh said to Christopher Robin.
You are braver that you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. Whatever I can do to help~~I am here. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
. Get out and feel the sun on your face. Come here and let it all out. Start a journal where you can name call and say anything you want. Heck I do that on here. There is no judgement here. We are all in this walking the same awful road but at different streets...Eat cake for dinner.what ever you need to do to start taking baby steps FORWARD. Will you have backward days...oh yes my friend you are talking to the backward queen.
