An onion, dance lessons and a Harley III

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I'm sitting at a McDonalds in no where kentucky on a work trip and realize my emotions are back with a vengence, well not quite a vengence but qorae than before I went on vacation. Im thinking its a case of a weeks break from thought and now I have to settle back into my role. It gives me more opportunity to learn how to sit with my feelings and deal woth my emotions. Right now one would think i would have this down pat, infortunately sigh I have more to learn.

Figuring out my life and what I want is the next step, in this journey. Sometimes I feel like running away just like my W did, getting away from it all. I know however where ever I go, I will follow me. All my emotions will eventually catch me and I could not bear the thought of hirting my children further, yet those feelings are there. I will not yield to them, this is a fight I will win. The good thing is my emotions are no where near Bd time. I know another layer of the onion, eventually I'm gonna hate onions lol.

This to shall pass, bright days arw ahead as well as dark ones, might as well learn to deal with them now hehe.

My father is still not doing well, if he gets any worse we may have to put him in a facility to help him. He wrecked his truck yesterday(hes okay), could barely put a sentence together and forgot who I was. This is so sad to watch, hes always been an Iron man and tough as nails.