My Five Year Update! Yep! It's Been That Long!

[mkultra]

Good morning. I need to be here because it keeps me sane. Facebook is such a damaging place. It is shallow and too easy to snoop. I have tried not to snoop but I notice that a lot of what I post is a message to my ex-lover. For example, I try to validate that I am a good mother, that others find me funny and pretty. Pics of concerts and games I go too and the interesting people I meet, etc. It all seems so contrived now. I just need it to end. The saddest part is that I can tell that he is picking up on these messages. He doesn't really communicate with me anymore. He just responds. And I feel like the message I have put out is that I do not need anyone and I meet a lot of interesting men. I've never been disloyal to anyone. I can see now it is a cry for attention for a man who has gone into ignore mode. My ex-husband is actually blocked. He cannot see anything and he is never really on social media. If I have learned anything from my ex's affairs t is that snooping and social media is very damaging.