Well, I fell off the wagon already. I don't know where all this resentment is coming from, because I ate the fishie alive last night, and this morning, and I'm STILL hungry!Why am I so PO'd at my H?
I just feel like I am doing all the work for this M, and our S, and just generalyl EVERYTHING. I feel like everything is about HIM and never about me. I know this is how it's "supposed" to be right now, but I think it sucks. I still feel like a single parent, even when he's here. Nothing that I say I need ever happens, while I am at his beck and call 24 hours a day. He actually had the nerve to say this morning "you know this is actually how the house is supposed to look, right?"
Like he would ever lift a finger to make sure it stayed that way - then he's like "but I always tell my mom when she mentions it that you're busy" GRRRR. I am so mad right now! I work really hard with the house and with our S, and he does nothing, and STILL he always gets to be the good guy, while I am always the bad guy. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! I know I am not supposed to get angry, but when is the point when a one-sided relationship becomes even more one-sided? Aren't I encouraging him to take me for granted if I wait on him hand and foot while he doesn't have to do anything for the house or for our S?
He sleeps here. That's it. He doesn't eat here, pick up, clean, or anything. He brought his dirty laundry home and threw the bags in the middle of the living room floor. Wow, I am SO mad right now!!!!
*pant, pant, pant* Feeling a little out of breath. (I will NOT kill my H, I will NOT kill my H)
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
