It does take time, so please be kind to yourself. I never would have thought I would/could make it this long, but here I am.
This touched me:
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Something I will always cherish as I will forever have a part of him in my life through them. And not because H will come around, but I see MY true H in my boys all the time.
Our boys all have W in them...the oldest is probably 50/50 W/me, the middle more me, the youngest more W, in both physical and personality aspects...it is kind of haunting at times. It also helped solidify that W will always (most likely) be around in some fashion, regardless of what happens...this was comforting in a sense, but also helped galvanize me to continue standing for some reason.
W also did (still does) all sorts of things that didn't make sense, but somehow work for her at that moment. I will say that she was mostly working off of what she wanted/felt/thought at that moment, not much energy spent on future reality (future fantasies, oh yes, but not reality). Maybe "living in the NOW" taken to extreme...lol! She even let slip on our anniversary "date" that she was into fantasy right now, not reality, when she chose the movie we saw (and she has NEVER been into fantasy films, books, nada).
I don't know if this is helping at all, but know that things do change unexpectedly...I thought W would be long gone by now when I was 6-7 months in...our actions now are what helps shape our future.
Hang in there!! T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
