Still Struggling and need help #4

[CharlieBrown]

Been a week since my last post.

I called our MC last Tuesday and told him I knew W was still going on tat-boy's fb page 10-15 times/day and obsession was larger than when I let on in MC session. Asked him whether to bring up to her and he said he didn't have an anwer, I needed to decide. He asked me how I knew and I said from snooping and he said "ahhhh, so you are both being sneaky, not just her." Yes, and I thought about that quite a bit.

Last Wednesday night, I couldn't leave well enough alone. We were having a nice dinner, night before leaving for vacation and I asked her about whether she was still looking up tat-boy on FB and Twit. I tried to say it lovingly, that I realized this was a major "warm-blanket" for her for months and that if she was, I would want to know so we could be open with each other. She said "not really, maybe a couple times" and I asked again a few different ways. At some point, she started to push back on the "how do you know this" and "I am creeped out by this" and more. Didn't go well, safe to say. That night, I told her before bed that I would let it go and tell her if I checked anymore but would like her to tell me if she is still going to his site. Didn't sleep much that night and the next morning I gave her a big hug and told her I loved her. She smugly said, "what was that for, something you want to tell me?" and I said, "I want to move forward and focus on us."

We left that day for vacation. Long driving trip to Black Hills. That much time in the car could have been trouble, but we had a nice trip. I felt like W and I really connected, until a couple days ago. Not sure what it is, but she seems like pre-BD. No MC session this week and we are very busy next few days, then I go to Boy Scout camp for a few days with S12 on Sunday.

I haven't checked her FB for well over a week or snooped at all. Easily could have on trip, but I am going to honor my word.

CB