Sounds great that you're able to do things as YOU want to, even though you know it might be a bit difficult. It sounds like there might be some hope yet for your R -- but you're doing the right thing keeping the expectations in check. Good luck with the softball!
Me 47 W 44 T 17 years, M 15 years D13, D10 March 2013 -- broke a trust/cheated late May 2013 -- W spoke of separation for first time June 2013 -- began reading DB