Wait it out - or shake it up?

[mrtwopointfour]

Was it you who posted an exhausting list of changes/gal?

Yeah think that was me. I think I am ok with about 70% the rest is still to work on.

The problem i am facing at the moment is that I don't know which way to go. I thought I had given up, and would just move on and be happy with that. Life seemed easier that way, I have been getting on with life, enjoying myself. And life at home has been better, no worrying from me about what W was up to, what she thought of me. This made me relax a little and I have been cooling down on some of the things i had been religiously working on, my 180's and changes. Earlier this week i slipped up a little on one of my changes and my W made a comment about it, i think this came about because i have let me guard down a little, maybe also because i am a little worn down. My point is, it really hit me hard and when my W picked me up on it, I felt like i had slipped down a very long slide back to how i felt months ago

I guess this proves that there is still a lot of work to do for me, and that I am not ready to give up yet, otherwise my Ws comment would not get to me.

What would you consider a more drastic measure?

Maybe trying something completely different to rock the boat a little, see if it changes anything. Why i don't know - because life is pretty nice at home at the moment so it could turn bitter if I try something silly

Why do you think it would help your M?

Not sure it would, maybe i was thinking it would wrap things up one way or the other quicker.

IDK i am extremely confused at the moment, not sure what i want right now.