Clear goals and a vision for the future

[Lyrael]

Okay - I followed up the IM with a quick call, because I actually was willing to take care of this bill if he couldn't/didn't want to.
H: (Shope name)
M: Hi, sweetie.
H: Hi.
M: I just wanted to make sure it was really okay with you that you're taking care of this water bill, because I know it's the beginning of the month and I am not trying to get you in a bad spot financially.
H: No, I don't think that. I am fine with it. I seriously don't know whether to believe this or not. Sometimes he gets mad because I don't let him take care of things; sometimes he gets mad at me "for making him take all the responsibility." Although we haven't talked about that in a long time, I just don't know what to think here. I really can't take care of this bill - I can pay him back for it. Should I do that, even though he says he doesn't want me to? Am I obsessing over something I should just take at face value?
M: Okay, well - I really appreciate you taking care of that. And I really am glad the bed was okay.
H: Eh, well - it did its job.
M: Okay, well - I just called to make sure you really weren't upset about taking care of that. I will talk to you later, okay?
H: Okay. You know where I'm at.
Me: Bye
H: Bye

I wanted to crazymake SO bad - I still want to, but I am as of this morning claiming myself fish sober for at least 24 hours, and if i can get through today, it will be 48.
Wish me luck!
Myrrh