I am smack in the middle of the anger stage right now. I went from feeling sorry for myself to full blown anger about a week ago. Everyone will tell you that anger is horrible for your health and that you need to let it go, but it is almost impossible. No one person can stay occupied with other thoughts 24 hours a day. You always seem to come back to your sitch and more anger. I have tried excersising, drinking (not a great choice) and keeping as busy as i can, but it gets overwhelming at times.
But there seem to be some happy times once in awhile also. Maybe this is wrong of me to feel this way, but I felt a bit of a victory last night at S7 baseball game.
Normally W would be the one socializing within the crowd with our friends and other childrens parents, but the last 2 games we have went too, our common friends have made an effort to stop by and say hello to me, but my W has received the cold shoulder. She sat by herself the last 2 games while my S4 runs up and sits by me. I actually felt a bit sad for her being by herself last night with no one talking to her, but it also made me realize that she is hurting too, but this was her decision.
I felt pretty good about myself last night and this morning until i realized that today was our 9th wedding anniversary and 1 month from today, i will be divorced.
Back to reality.
I get what you and everyone is going through, and maybe we can all get through it together as best we can.
Have a good day.
Me: 41 W: 36 M:9 yrs Together: 12 yrs Kids S7 S4 BD: 01/13 W filed 5/13 D final 8/13
