Hoping for WAS to come home

[JaxFL14]

Question for y'all. Since my W has moved out I have been giving her what I call child support due to the advice of a lawyer saying if you don't now and she goes through with the divorce you will owe back child support. I'm doing the right thing by giving it to her right? Not giving it would almost guarantee force her to file for D because she cant financial survive. I'm trying to avoid anything that forces her hand but don't want to appease her and make everything very easy for her. She mentioned the Internet saying I would owe her X amount which would def cripple me but she said she would never take that much. I told her I think those numbers are off due to we both have the 3 kids 50% of the time. I just don't want to be enabling her but also understand that the courts only care about her being able to support the kids. And it stinks to see her paying baby sitters with that money so she can go out with friends at night. I know, DETACH DETACH DETACH!!