Am I being silly, I just had a thought that I can't shake. Some perspective would be nice.
I am thinking H is not in MLC. I think he was going through the motions of a break up and now that he is a little further, is starting to be comfortable with his decision.
We all also know that I know that H is having the ongoing affair, to which he knows I know about also. He is starting to make the affair public to his new friends. He has moved out. We have separated finances for the most part, and to top it off, he has started to try to blend families, by introduction of the kids, with OW.
He has explicitly said he doesn't want to work on the marriage, has expressed his intent in various ways to move forward with his life without me in it.
Am I being silly?
The only thing this man has not done is file for the divorce. That does not give me any hope that he would want to reconcile. I am starting to feel that I am the back up plan should things not work out with OW. I don't want to be that!
What am I holding onto? My love for him? That does not a marriage make. Am I indeed being taken for the fool here?
I think I need a swift kick in the pants...someone?!?! advice?
BombOctober 2012- OW 11/28/12 -H still denies Separated 11/29/12 Own place 12/12/12 Confessed OW/EA/PA 2/2/13 Oct 2013 - I knew I was done Jan 2014 - Anticipating the rest of my life
