My Five Year Update! Yep! It's Been That Long!

[mkultra]

Hey Everybody! I have missed our conversations and many of you have been in my thoughts as we survive the Big D!

A brief synopsis: My husband, not ex, that sounds weird, and I were together almost ten years with two little kids. He had a midlife crisis and he cheated and became verbally abusive. He almost died in a horrible accident and the family had to nurse him back for almost a year.

My dating life: Ugh, I have spent the past few years with two different alcoholic single dads who have had promiscuous pasts that they had trouble giving up. Even though my ex-husband cheated, he was never that bad. So, out of the fire and into the frying pan.

Divorce Busting: The funny thing is, I knew after his accident and after I had moved on that we could be back together. I just no longer wanted it. But, I also know that I cannot upgrade from him. Nobody gets me the way he did. Nobody loves hearing stories about the kids,and my work, and my family the way he did.

Sigh. My heart has been broken lately. By both my ex-husband and my last lover of three years.

I'm not sure what mistakes I am making. but I do know that what I learned from DB has realy helped me. I remember to Act As If, Stay Positive, Work Out, I always try to remember that feeling when that person absolutely did love me. I knwo a happy partner is hard to leave. It really works!! Both my exes saw me as happy and even after their affairs wanted me back. But, I had already moved on. That is the tragic part. the timing is off. My latest failed attempt at a relationship was most difficult because of the fact that we are both single parents who could not commit emotionally. Thank you all soooo much for reading. I am feeling really beat down by love right now.