Suckerpunch, you summed it up pretty well. We are confused, we don't know what to do anymore and it does kill us. One of the questions in another book by MWD asks what you would do if your wish came true when you woke up. My wish would be to have my W back, but boy, that would also be very scary how to handle her back again, to relearn everything about her again, to also worry about everything I did or didn't do. Yes, I and you, can work on ourselves for the better, but there is still a lot of unknown out there, and that is scary and makes us feel lost at times.
ME:51 W:46 M:25 S:22, S:20 Divorced 16/9/15 BD 10/12 W left 12/12 with OW, affair confirmed Nov/12. Dark since 6/13 I"m in a new relationship since Feb 14.