You changed the question to what you wanted to respond to.
You had more than a couple of posts wondering what to do about the anniversary, you said So I am more and more torn about the anniversary.
I'm not trying to beat you up, I'd just like you to be honest with yourself. My anniversary meant something to me, there's no crime in that. I was sad when it came and went without fanfare but I got over it. I've chosen to let it pass without mentioning it. I can remember it on my own but it's not a day of celebration for us as a couple.
The honorable things are what we do without expecting personal gain, the good we do when no one is looking because that's who we are.
Who do you really want to be, sp?
I wish to be a someone that only a fool would leave. I wish to be a husband and a father, under the same roof. I wish to feel whole again. With that said, I would think you were saying that because you were doing it for a reason, with expectations I suppose. I don't know. I am still just SOOOO confused about HOW I am supposed to act. I don't even know what to do anymore and it's killing me. It's like I am lost, trying to find myself and improve....and I don't know how to do it.
