Still working on me

[sweetbabyred]

D could have been finalized as early as last Monday, but the court didn't approve the papers that I had to drop off last week. I'd hoped that it would be done this Thursday, but no such luck.

I still love my H, but have accepted that he's not able or willing to work on our M now. He has hopes that we'll still be great friends, but he gets upset whenever I say anything, saying that I'm trying to guilt trip him, so I'm not sure if we'll be able to be friends.

H hasn't felt married since we separated two years ago, but at this point I need the D so that I can move on too. I have to get the forms notarized and head back to drop them off at the courthouse again (for the 3rd time).

Since we've agreed on everything, I've decided not to bother getting off work and making it to the hearing. I'm going to hope that H will go at the first available opportunity to get it all finalized.

Oh, and he definitely affaired down and is finally realizing just how badly. His last OW was arrested last week for getting jealous of two of her "friends" and shooting the male friend in the face. She didn't mean to pull the trigger, but she'd threatened them a few days before, so she'll probably do some time.

She's 22, and just moved out of her parents' house a week before. I knew she'd go even crazier without her curfew, but didn't imagine just how bad it would get. Her jealousy and insecurity may have just ruined the rest of her life.

I still feel that one day H will realize that he gave up on the best thing that ever happened to him, but it will probably be too late for it to matter. I can't worry about that and need to move on with my life and my future.