Clear goals and a vision for the future

[Lyrael]

I am at loss right now.
Good things are still happening with H and I, but not because I am doing anything right! He took me to look at a house he wants us to buy -it's absolutely beautiful - it has dark woodwork, amazing hardwood floors, this neat wrought-iron fireplace. Four bedrooms upstairs, and an office downstairs with dark cherrywood built-in cabinets. He told me that maybe I could use that room for a counseling practice (that almost made me cry - I don't even have my degree yet, but he really believes in me!).
He told me he just wants a place where we (meaning all three of us) can be together. Last night I found out we may have a bed - getting a new one was an issue in him coming home.
But I still haven't been able to break the habit of getting upset when he leaves early. I am just having trouble with understanding how, if he is saying he wants to/is planning to come home, he is now reducing the time he spends with us! So I get mad when he leaves. I guess I need to lower my expectations - and figure out some sort of scripted end to our visits. Also, I have problems when we are planning visits. Then I can't relax when he's there - last night he was snuggling with me on the couch, and he commented on it. He hugged me and said "Just relax, sweetie!"
Right now, our M's progress is all him, because I really feel like I've fallen off the wagon.
Truth be told, I'm scared. I am afraid he is coming back SOON, and I am really afraid I'm not up to that challenge.
Bleagh,
Myrrh