Linda--She hasn't said why, so I can only speculate...maybe to see proof that she was happy and loved me before all this started, so maybe possible to feel that way again? That we do have lots in common, and complimentary differences (ie, I like to cook, she doesn't, me logical, her emotional, etc) and so a future R is more possible than she believed it to be?? I am sitting quietly, I trust the answers will come...
Raine--It is kinda a strange feeling being where I am, prepared and basically okay with whatever happens. Though I do still hope for R, and will do the work needed. All I can say is I am not complaining, the feeling is better than the devastation/worry/stress I had before in this journey.
I don't have too much exciting to post about me...I am in a "low-key", quiet mode...just doing my projects, thinking, spending time with kids, pondering, gardening, meditating, just whatever I feel like doing and what needs doing...and not worried about it at all.
Maybe this is a "vacation" or "recovery" of sorts...idk. But it is mine and my choice, just don't feel a need for "big stuff/projects/plans" right now...lol.
Let's see, W: -put the new soap she bought that I said I really liked from the upstairs ("her") bathroom into "my" bathroom, a nice little surprise. -communicated with me her change in work plans and such at the time they happened via text...this is new (again). -sought me out a few times. -still has the "softening" about her voice I mentioned before. -is self-reporting (and at least when I am home I can back up) that she is avoiding getting on the computer except for mostly "work" things like looking for jobs, her EFT tapping videos, and some comedy on hulu.
Just reporting/journaling...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
