Thank you, Bea. It helps to know that my feelings and experience are similar. It gives me hope that I will pull through this.
Rejection is a horrible experience. I need to move beyond it. I know this, but it's hard. I'm determined to start writing a new story. I no longer want to be the SAHM that was left with two kids to raise. That story is too sad and scary. I want my life to be more than. I do want the joy to come back. I am desperately trying to figure out how to change the way I see my situation. It will be easier once the D is final, but even then I don't want to see myself as a divorced woman struggling through life. That just feels bad. So, I am trying very hard today to start recovering and see myself the way others do, excluding my H.
