Once again, your words resonate with what I felt at the same time: the need to feel safe and secure, missing your old self, and feeling joyful.
Bit by bit it comes back, but I cannot say it is the same. We are older and wiser, but the innocence of trusting someone totally is gone forever. I understand much better the way that people feel who have suffered abuse in early life - they never had the innocence and trust that was ourse for so long.
Our children remain a joy, and they take their cue from how we behave.
