Oh Blue I am so sorry you are hurting. I know that pain and it just takes over. Try and not focus on regrets. I know it is hard but you had lots of happy times too ~~they are just hard to remember when the pain is so intense. And your M has 2 people in it so DO NOT put all the blame on just you. Sending you many hugs and know you are in my prayers. Go take a walk and feel some sunshine on your face. I am here if you need me. Hang in there.
Hang in there.
