Any hope???

[Emilys88]

Also going to my first derby practice tonight to learn about it and see if that's something I want to do for sure.

[~ kd ~]

ah yes, the context of independence makes sense.

I would love to volunteer as a derby teams official bootlicker, but some of those chicks really scare me.

Hope you have a great time at the practice. I'm guessing your local league is a flat track league. That seems to be common (less expensive) these days.

[jp787]

ah yes, the context of independence makes sense.

I would love to volunteer as a derby teams official bootlicker, but some of those chicks really scare me.

Hope you have a great time at the practice. I'm guessing your local league is a flat track league. That seems to be common (less expensive) these days.

What foreign language is this your speaking in?

All I know is it sure looks like fun!!!

[~ kd ~]

lol jp! It's like Rocky Horror Picture Show... except different.

One can enjoy roller derby... but in order to REALLY enjoy roller derby, one MUST adopt the culture. I don't think there is an official boot licker position... but I would petition to start and be one. lol

[Emilys88]

yeah its a flat track league. It was awesome and I'm super stoked to get my gear and get started!!!

I also submitted my application for college for the Fall, just have to get my FAFSA stuff taken care of.

I'm sad that this sitch happened but I'm starting to enjoy myself for the first time in a long time. This is who I'm ment to be and I think I lost myself in my R.

[Emilys88]

went and bartended last night with the roller derby, had a blast.

been a little down today, cant believe the D will be final next month.

im makeing huge changes for myself and working on bettering myself by going to college, getting involved with derby, looking for a summer job/part time, spending time with friends and family, working on controling my temper, talking with my IC, and when i do talk to stbx i dont talk about R or argue with him.

But with all of that deep down i still miss him and want him back. I know i deserve better and to be with someone who wants to be with me. Maybe this is my impatience coming out again, i know it will take time, i guess i thought it would be better by now though.

[Emilys88]

guess my things will be here the 17th but his BIL is delivering it.

saw a FB post that hes been downing beers before 8 in the morning today.........yet no one sees a problem

[Emilys88]

been in a funk since he texted me, cant believe ill be divorced in a month......I still want to save my marriage but its impossible now.

How can i still love this man after everything he has done? I really wish I would stop having these downer moods but I guess thats part of the ride.

[AnotherStander]

been in a funk since he texted me, cant believe ill be divorced in a month......I still want to save my marriage but its impossible now.

Not necessarily, couples have reconciled even years after D. The key to saving a marriage is to quit "trying" to save it. That's DB'ing. Don't "fight" to save your M. Quit pitting yourself against your H. Take the pressure off of him. The reason marriages reconcile after divorce is because the LBS FINALLY takes all the pressure off and starts living their own life, and that in turn makes the WAS see the person they originally fell in love with instead of the person that's been fighting with them in recent months. If LBS's could figure that out earlier then there would be far fewer D's I think.

[Emilys88]

been in a funk since he texted me, cant believe ill be divorced in a month......I still want to save my marriage but its impossible now.

Not necessarily, couples have reconciled even years after D. The key to saving a marriage is to quit "trying" to save it. That's DB'ing. Don't "fight" to save your M. Quit pitting yourself against your H. Take the pressure off of him. The reason marriages reconcile after divorce is because the LBS FINALLY takes all the pressure off and starts living their own life, and that in turn makes the WAS see the person they originally fell in love with instead of the person that's been fighting with them in recent months. If LBS's could figure that out earlier then there would be far fewer D's I think.

makes sense, just hate having to be patient and move my focus from him to me