I'm only stopping here to say hi for the evening. Opt has a wonderful handle on patience and DBing, so I think her experience should speak volumes.
She's got a heart of gold and the endurance of an Olympic skater...
You'll figure this out. I know it's hard. Some days look brighter than others, but in grand scheme of things what really counts is how far you've come and what you've learned.
So consider yourself hugged.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."