((((Opt))))
Thanks, and you're right. I guess I was just at a really, really low point and since I can't see the big picture, it just seems like things will be this hard forever.

And it's weird - sometimes it's at that lowest point when things start to look a little better and the sun peeks through the trees.

H came over last night, and it was so GREAT. Not any big scary talks, just spending time together, snuggling on the couch, and then (which I was completely not expecting). I had to bite my tongue a few times to avoid bringing up things I knew would make the tension come back, but it was worth it!I think this can work as long as I give it some time, and learn when to speak, and when to just let things happen.

You're right Opt. I want to be able to say (when and if this is over, which I'm not thinking its going to be) that I did everything I could to save it and to work on myself.

Thanks again for the reality check - I needed it.

Things are better right now.
Myrrh

One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.