RT, I understand what you are feeling. I've been there MANY times.
I have been getting nervous/anxious about my contact with my x. Why? Because I am scared. Scared she will stop contacting me? Scared that I will develop feelings fer her?
Lots of fears...
Those fears are motivating the "need" to reach out. Being motivated from that fear is no way to live. My motivations must come from a loving place.
I guess my point is - it's time for you to sit in the "uncomfortable". To look at yourself in the mirror and ask - What am I afraid of?
And then own it. Own your fears. It's okay to be scared....
From there - you can then decide what you want to do about it. From there you can decide what is loving to both yourself and her.
((( )))
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
