So, I had my date with W on Saturday. It seemed like we were both relaxed and having fun. It was nice to talk with her without the kids around. No serious relationship talks came up. Just hanging out, enjoying life.
A couple of weird things did happen over the weekend. Just before our date (in the car in the driveway), W decided to put her wedding rings on. I don't think she has worn them since December. I didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say or think. It certainly wasn't a bad thing. I'm not sure what it means if anything. So I've been telling myself that it doesn't mean anything. I guess I can mark it as a success for my DB baby goals.
Then, my W was talking about getting old. I said that at least she looked good doing it. She was on the other side of the counter (about 5 feet away). I acted playful like I was reaching to grab her and pull her close. She leans back giggling and says "You can look but you can't...well, your my husband, so I guess you can. Isn't that what girls say to guys all the time? Look but don't touch." Talk about messing with my mind. I swear she is just trying to tease me.
Sigh. I didn't respond to her. If she does want to be touched, I think she needs to initiate (or maybe I need to ask permission?). It still feels like she has a wall up about touching, but it is slowly crumbling. I just need more time and patience. Sigh again.
