Wild Horses (couldn't drag me away)

[RosaLinda]

"Yes, that does make sense. Thanks to my careless actions that one night, she has tied her recent feelings of neglect and abandonment to me, and I'm afraid still has not even considered that the childhood abuse has anything to do with it."


"Said she woke up screaming last night, and it was because of me. No details given. She said this in a calm matter of fact matter, showing no emotion."

"Your H should protect you even more so, and I let her down that one night. She's having a difficult time getting over it, (as am I) but to her credit, does seem like she is trying to. Maybe my actions since then have helped show her that I really do love her and only want the best for her. After all, she's still here, and telling me about her life."

"She came home from work in a real pissy mood, yelling at the dog and cursing over little things. She gradually calmed down and warmed up some as we interacted. Sometimes it seems I really am the rock! Let's hope so."

Oh FY, I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling at this time. This is NOT all of your fault, I hope that you really really understand that, both in your heart and your mind. I think your actions ARE showing your W how much you love her, and that she can rely on you to be her rock. I don't remember from your old thread, I remember you saw a C at one time, but does your W also have a counselor?

I'm glad that you have a friend you can confide in, and also that you and your W are having some fun times together, like your chuckle at her being the date for her gay friend at a same sex marriage. We all smiled at that picture

You are a big hunk of rock! Hang in there!