MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

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I don't blame my life. Yes I blame him for leaving in the middle of this family crisis and I am left with the fallout of the divorce and helping my D. My sitch with my D I do NOT blame on anyone. If my H were dead, nothing would change. Like I said I don't blame him for my sitch with my D. If we did not get D I would not have been here in Florida at recovery center for my D. I have an AMAZING life if you read my earlier post. I want only to share it with my H.

I only had wished he stuck it out a little longer, tried a little harder, to put our lives back together. He jumped the gun and ran. Most certainly had been in his mind a while and took the opportunity when it came and at that point couldn't back down.

He is one of those WAS that will always say it was the best thing he ever did. Pride or Ego whatever it may be. I would love nothing more than for him to realize the damage he did and want to reconcile. I don't think he has it in him to do that even if he still loved me...the point of no return.

I've been reading another past post in which she was in same sitch. She WAS but then husband did 180 on her without even trying and she became the LBS. Although I was more a MLC at the time, but I never left or ever intended on leaving I more degleted my M and I realize all this now. But at the time I chose to ignore our problems communicating because I just knew we were married and we loved each other. We never discussed divorce or leaving. So when I realized everything going on with D out of hospital and how my life was I turned around and recommitted myself. At that point my H BD on me. And it all ended from there.

But to get to my point in reading the other post, she WAS then husband does DB but doesn't realize it and then he becomes the WAS and she ends up LBS doing 180 on her H and he then wants to work it out. Hahaha. And in the end she's been doing all the DB, 180, GAL, etc. and doesn't want to have R in the end.

Is that me? I don't know. I just know that with my sitch with my D and S and how committed to family and how much this has separated us, I would do anything to have that back and him back in our lives. It's like he would rather have the sitch as it is with such limited (on his part) visits than to try with me in it. I find that so hurtful.

Although his life has completely changed. He has become a different person now and I don't even know him. He is with OW whom he says he didn't leave for, I believe that now after reading other posts, but immediately started seeing her while we were briefly separated.

I am curious to know about the "lables of MLC types". Can you give me more info.

I find so much peace with all this when I can see things from the other side. I know we weren't perfect. And I know I was a part of the marriage falling apart. I just don't understand his ability to walk away from our sitch.

After his visit here last week, he told my D he cried all the way home from the airport to his place. Even telling his family that he would become very emotional at times while he was with them. I don't know...is that reason enough to let him know how I really feel? Everyone says that he has to make the first move, but then I think he thinks I hate him.

Curious on your thoughts. and let me know link to the labels.

Thanks for helping me through this.