I don't know if I am all that - certainly not before 10:00 a.m. without caffeine!
I do love him and I wish him well. Our time together wasn't perfect but we shared many good memories - and great memories. I learned a lot from him and I would like to think he learned a few things from me, too.
Is he in a bad place or just trying to play on my sympathies? I don't know. I have let it be known that the door is open for him. It is his choice whether he walks through it or not.